Recently, I had a few days feeling a touch of Job.  Thankfully, I was definitely not at his level of despair, no sickness or death but just burdened with inconvenient and unsolicited stress and emotion.  Luckily, having the hindsight with Job’s story, we know to stay strong and diligent throughout our trials no matter what. God does not punish or seek revenge on His children.  God is with us always and He wants us to seek Him and to talk with Him about all the nonsense that can occur in our lifetime. I appreciate that I can ask why, how, when, what, where and even how come and He is not only listening but will respond and help. I feel close enough and free enough to go to God for all matters even if they seem silly and whiny.

I am assured that I am never alone and always have an outlet with which to address complaints or happenings that seem overwhelming at the moment.  I’ve learned to seek God and not be ashamed especially with desperate requests. He understands my heart and feels my heaviness. However, even with all that realization and as gracious as God is, I still feel like a pest questioning or burdening God because of my own impatience, foolishness and wrestling my will with God’s.  So for that, I must turn to prayer and ask forgiveness and then seek the gifts of the Holy Spirit, especially knowledge and wisdom. Most of all, I must trust with utmost faith in God’s plans and try to discern His will in my life.

Lord Have Mercy,

Paula